“If I could wake up one day and choose to be anybody in the world, who would I be?” I mused one night.
With thirty-one years of experience behind me, I know for a fact I wouldn’t want to be any of the celebrities, my friends, or my family members. It’s not because I don’t look up to them; I do, at least to some of them. But I know very well I’m best when I’m me. It’s me who I understand the most, and it’s me who baffles me the most; it’s a sweet spot of familiarity and strangeness.
Yet, I am not happy being me. There are things I want to change about myself. There are new skills and dimensions I want to acquire in my life: whether it’s my character, personality, or lifestyle.
- For starters, I want to be a more hardworking and smart-working person.
- I want to be more consistent in my creative endeavors and personal relationships.
- I want to have healthy boundaries and be more assertive about it.
- I want to be more self-accepting even as I strive to be a better version of myself.
- There are a couple of skills I would love to learn. Things, I’m aware that even ten-year-old kids know these days, like cycling, driving, and cooking.
- I want to exercise every day. I enjoy walking, swimming, and dancing. I used to skate as a kid. I have done scuba diving once and thoroughly enjoyed the experience. I would love to do it again. I would like to restart all these activities and also include new ones like yoga, meditation, gym workouts, weight training, and trekking into my weekly and monthly activity lists. Running a marathon is definitely one thing on my list: I have run a 2k and a 3k so far. The first 42km still feels like a humongous task.
- Boarding a flight and traveling to another country is something I would love to do. If possible, I would love to work in another country at least for a year. I want to learn to be on my own and to build a community there. Imagine finding your own tribe in a foreign country. I look forward to that.
- Writing another book: something I have been trying and failing since 2018, especially because I have succumbed to my everyday distractions. I have promised myself I will go low-key on social media and concentrate more on reading and writing this year. Let me see how that goes.
I can add a hundred more items to this list, but I think 8 is a good number. And if I had to choose just one thing from this list, I would choose point 8, because the Dream Me would still be a reader, book lover, and writer. For some strange reason, ever since I was a kid, I have always believed that writing would someday set me FREE, from everything that’s holding me back, from everything that hurts me, from everything that makes me feel unlovable. Let’s see how 2024 pans out. I will keep you guys posted.
Meanwhile, Happy New Year All! The world needs more love, kindness, hugs, and kisses, not wars or genocides. Let’s push for ceasefires, peace, and harmony.
Love,
Lirio
15th Jan 2024
Lirio's Wanderings 